Tuesday, May 27, 2008

ever have one of those days......

Thank goodness yesterday is over. John John had probably the worst day in a very long time. Combine lack of sleep and anxiety of his dad going away for the week, you have a recipe for disaster. Four meltdowns and more crying than I've seen in a long time. Hopefully today will be better.

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

another day

why oh why is coming up with witty titles drive me batty?? Sometimes I wish I could just come up with catchy subjects. Truthfully, it doesn't matter. I like having this blog to air what's on my mind. I also like having this "spot" to share what is happening.
It boggles my mind to think the school year is on the down swing. One more month really left of John's grade 2 year. He only has 3 years left in elementary school. I am still mapping out his summer activities. Not sure yet if my in-laws will be available to have him over the summer. Guess that won't be the worst. It has been a nice little break the last couple of years. John John and I spend a lot of time together. Hopefully the John's can go up to Kingston for a few days without me. I've been there enough for the year.
Thanks Amy and Michelle for the responses. I never would have thought that time heals pain, but in some ways it has. My mom more so than my dad, but honestly her death was not a surprise. We were blessed to have her around for 12 years after her initial brain tumour. I feel guilty admitting that her dying was something that I was prepared for. I miss her, don't get me wrong. I sometimes wish to just hear her on the phone. I just know in my heart she is in a better place, and I can remember the mom I had before her cancer.

Monday, May 12, 2008

remembering mom

today would have been mom's 68th birthday. Hard to believe this is the 4th birthday not to be celebrated. Time has helped heal a little, but the inner core ache of missing mom still hasn't.
We spent a quick weekend up in Kingston. John's mom had surgery last Wednesday. She won't get results till this week about whether or not the cancer is in her lymph nodes. Irene is slowly healing. Hopefully she will get up and walking so she can go home. I was a good girl and went to the hospital to see her. Going in the General was not easy for me, but I did it. I guess hubby realizes it, but he didn't make a big deal about it.
So, on this day, I send a cherished heavenly birthday wish to my mom. miss you.

Sunday, May 04, 2008

maybe a quiet week?

Wishful thinking probably. I do believe work wise it might be a bit quieter. However every time I think that, it ends up being crazy.
This weekend we did odds and ends around the house. We needed to do some major cleaning, so we did that today. Yesterday we drove over to Saratoga for some shopping and dinner. John John was in a mood, so it wasn't a joyful day. I wasn't even in the mood to browse when we were at Target. We went to the mall, and I was very good. I eyed some things at Bath and Body Works, but resisted.
John goes away for work again. He's only away Monday and Tuesday, and then again at the end of the month. It will be nice when spring travel is over. He was away most of last week. John John and I had a little too much togetherness. We were definitely ready for a buffer. Too bad he didn't come home with a "I'm ready to handle it" attitude.