Wednesday, May 24, 2006

ahh peace and quiet

John is away in Montreal till Friday for a conference, so it's just John John and I. It's actually kind of nice just being the two of us here. Solo parenting isn't always a joy, but when John John is good he's so easy. He had a T-ball game tonight. John John was a little silly on the field, and wasn't always paying attention. Not too sure how much of an athlete we have here. I like having him play if only for the socialization aspect. After the game we went with friends to where else, McDonald's. I will be so glad when that isn't the gourmet restaurant that is it at the moment.
This weekend we are going to Pittsburgh for my cousin Sam's wedding. All of my siblings shall be there, which will be nice. Can't help but feel a little sad that neither of my parents will be there. It will be 9 months exactly on Friday since dad's passing. It still just blows me away that they are gone. I know mourning my mom's death was different. I always knew that her time was limited and mourned before her death. I think a long term illness makes you come to grips with an imminent death. Don't get me wrong I was very upset when she died, but I knew it would happen. My father's death was totally unexpected. I just wasn't prepared. Can one really ever be prepared for a death? I doubt it.

Monday, May 22, 2006

maybe the sun will stick around today

Talk about washout weekend. Saturday John played t-ball in the rain and wind, which meant sitting in the bleachers in the rain. Yesterday we killed the afternoon at the mall. John was entertained throwing pennies into the fountain and riding the merry-go-round. We went to the toy store, and just looked around.
This coming Friday will be exactly 9 months since my father's death. I still rarely get through a day without thinking about him. I miss him and wish he were still here. I never realized how hard it would be to mourn him. more later.

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Sunday evening

John is in the tub, and tomorrow it's back to school. His first year of school comes to an end in a month and it amazes me how much he's learned. Of course I'm listening to him splash like a madman in the tub, and still being a boy, but he's come a long way. He is reading now and loves reading signs as we drive by. He is also telling time, adding, and subtracting. Now if his two bottom teeth would come out and he could tie his shoes we'd be set.
I'm back to Eastern time. Jet lag wasn't too bad. I loved Cyprus and would go back in a heartbeat. I enjoyed London too.